She Fell


she let herself fall

each time as painful as the last

each time surprised by what didn’t last


she let herself fall

trusting in him

he let her down

she let him win


she let herself fall

hopeless within

feeling the pain all over again


she let herself go

a new kind of way

different and beautiful

she begged him to stay


only in dreams did this ever occur

for her courage was found only in liquor


and during the day

she hid with a smile

broken and crushed by her fear of the wild


shameless boys, wicked girls

all who could talk and she not a word

yet in denial, she was okay

letting it go, his memory stayed.